SCANS
This part of my blog is about scans, I think I have had most scans offered on the nhs. My first one was 4 days after being told I had cancer it was an MRI scan I wasn't actually that scared for this one it didn't involve any needles.... not sure that I mentioned how scared I am of needles I HATE them.
I had been told by a few people that MRI scans make you feel claustrophobic luckily that didn't really bother me but I can understand how panicked some people get you are literally in a tunnel and you can't move. The scanner is close to your face but if you just focus on your breathing it isn't that bad. I did actually nearly fall asleep it was my first time being on my own for weeks being as the kids were on summer holiday and my sister and nieces had come to visit for the week.
This scan was to see if it had spread.
Then I had a CT scan this one was in a polo type machine. It wasn't claustrophobic it was spacious in the polo but this one I had to have a contrast dye injected into my veins meaning I had to have the dreaded cannula.
They practice the shots they need to take them inject the contrast when they inject this it does make all your body go warm also makes you feel like you have wet yourself 🤣 it is apparently completely normal.They then take the pictures it takes about 20 minutes you have to take deep breath's when they tell you to. Once that was done I was told to wait for my next appointmen with the results.
I really wasn't worried about the results from the scans I just carried on as normal for all of us especially the children and tried to enjoy a holiday away to Plymouth to visit my family. The children absolutely loved it they knew that mummy wasn't very well but just thought it was a stomach ache and I was having a few scans.
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/ct-scan/
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/mri-scan/
On the 26th august we had our results appointment I went into this appointment not worried very sure and positive that they were going to say I was going to have surgery to remove the tumour and that was that. Scott felt positive too I think only because I was I had reassured him time and time again that it was going to be straight forward I may have to have a stoma fitted but at least I hoped I wouldn't have to have chemotherapy....
Well how bloody wrong I was we went into a room where I was told that I would have to have an examination again without being sedated and have swabs taken this was very uncomfortable and awkward.
Whilst doing the examination they pumped air inside me I'm assuming to see more you can imagine the kind of noises that were coming out and all I could think of was oh god Scott's actually going to think that's me and the dr and nurse 🤦🏼♀️🤣 luckily she did reassure me whilst I was in tears that they knew it wasn't me passing wind really loudly.
After the lovely experience of the examination I was told that yes the tumour was cancerous and had actually spread to my lungs pelvic area and spots on my liver. I wouldn't have an operation I would in fact be having chemotherapy.
I was absolutely distraught all I kept asking was will I die in a month or have I got years. They told me that I could live for years with cancer that it will always be in my body they will not be able to cure me but they can treat me. I don't even remember half of what they said for crying so much and just wanting to get out of there and away from any medical professional whatsoever.
They gave me lots of leaflets about being young and having cancer and told me I'd have to have a PET scan to stage the cancer and check how advance it all was.
We left and got in the car whilst I scream and cried hysterically how the F*** is this fair, why me I'm a mum with 3 children it shouldn't happen to me... then was scotts turn to try and deal with it to reassure me that it will be ok that I am strong and we will do this together!!! He then went on to say I'm just so glad you didn't actually fart through that examination I was so worried I would burst out laughing and they would think I was a horrible husband for laughing through something so serious 😳🤣🤦🏼♀️. Honestly trust him to come out with something like that.
On that note I was calmer to drive and off we went to pick up the kids and tell our family the news.
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